the lair of dr vblschrf

Sep 17

i have been up for pretty much 24 hours straight after sleeping nearly all day yesterday after my test

you think that’d make it easier to sleep but nooooo

Sep 16

i felt pretty ok today and now i feel like complete shit

i want a hug, preferably one that lasts till next week or something

Sep 15

still groggy and woozy from my endoscopy earlier today

and sleeping about 5 hours this afternoon


Odd dreams I had during my nap from earlier:

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Sep 14


long nap. nothing but bad dreams.


*tempts friends into coming over with promises of air conditioning*

can’t sleep. feeling too sick.

Sep 12

i suddenly went from bad to much worse. stomach attack plus asthma attack plus dizziness plus shaking 

it’s subsided for now but if it comes back i’m going to need to go to the emergency room. i hope it won’t come to that.

I want to get out of here

I’m getting sick with anger at mom and if I didn’t have work later I’d be out of here in five seconds.

I feel sick enough anyway without her making things worse. But I really don’t think I’d have anywhere to go you can if I could leave.

Sep 10

i feel awful

i’m awful

i don’t want to be alone

Sep 08


Sep 07

I hate being allergic to perfumes and fragrances. Not only can I not breathe around air fresheners, people wearing a lot of perfume, and things like that, but I can’t find a deodorant that is both unscented and able to work well.

And don’t even get me started on that Fabuloso brand stuff we use at work. Even the smallest bit will make it extremely difficult for me to breathe.

Sep 06

speaking of tlok

i kinda want to cosplay varrick….

Sep 05